12047. >Anonymous-san   User: Anonymous   Post date: 2024/06/08(Sat) 08:57:26          
> There was a point when I realized that everything I liked was 
> underground through no intention of my own, and I kinda  hate it, lmao.
> ヽ(´∩`)ノ
> Even if the light of the mainstream is radioactive and mutagenic to that 
> which stands under its rays, it would mean I'd be able to talk about the 
> shit I like with people.
> Some of it is underground in a "lol you fucking enjoy ____" way, while 
> some of it is underground in a "I've never heard of ____" way, some of 
> it is "I know of ____ but it's too hardcore for me", some of it (a lot 
> of it) used to not be underground but it's not hip anymore, and some of 
> it is just not being able to discuss eromanga with people (this one is 
> fair, you can't talk about your hypnosis incest megane loli hentai with
> anyone in real life).
> The music I listen to is ancient/never was aboveground in any capacity, 
> I watch kodomo anime and shoujo shows more than anything vs anything 
> like what Crunchyroll is pushing these days. The games I play are either 
> incredibly old, incredibly niche, or both. The shit I watch on YouTube...
> some of it is hyper-mainstream, but not much. I don't watch any streamers
> or anything. 
> Some of it is me abandoning various forms of mainstream media, whether 
> it be that I end up thinking it sucks, or because it's just like kinda 
> depressing/infuriating. I don't watch broadcast TV at all and haven't in 
> 15 years. I don't have a streaming subscription service that I use. I 
> dropped several major social media sites because the algorithm went 
> insane and stopped putting anything I actually wanted to see in front of 
> me in favor of bullshit designed to elicit a response.
> Even in the underground, I'm feel a bit too underground. I dropped 4chan
> after  realizing that no one left actually wanted to talk about anything.
> I stayed on for years longer than I probably should have because there 
> were pockets where I could still talk about things. They're not 100% gone,
> but they're gone enough that it just isn't worth the effort.
> I guess I still watch mainstream movies sometimes? Did anyone else see
> The Menu? That shit was great. I try to go to the theater to watch movies
> but the theater closest to me closed down, the next closest one is
> increasingly run down, the one close to where my friend lives is alright
> but that's far as shit, and the one close to the Round 1 arcade I visit
> sucks so we still have to drive to a different theater. (´Д`)
> It's not all bad (again, the light of the mainstream alters whatever 
> stands beneath it in hideous, twisted ways), and in some ways, I feel 
> smug as hell about it... but it's rough being quite this disconnected 
> from things. ┐(゚~゚)┌
> either way,
> ヽ(´∇`)ノ

I feel the same way
-The most 'mainstream' stuff in my music collection is long forgotten
techno from the 90s like Technotronic
-The only books I read are literature reviews like 'Against
Interpretation' or conspiracy shit that literally makes people angry
when I bring it up,like about how musicians in the 60s were likely
frauds with ties to the military industrial complex.

-The last movie I watched was an Italian one from the 70s that was a
great allegory about people who refuse to grow up and let things go
(Maladolescenza)-- except I can't talk to anyone about it because it
mostly features kids traipsing around the woods and having sex in caves
-Ive never enjoyed video games. I keep trying but they bore me dead, so
that's another thing I can't talk about.

Reference: 2024/06/08(Sat) 00:38:39

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